Life After Dance...

As many of you know I'm a dancer. It is one of the biggest passions I have in this world. For the past 6 years I have been a professional dancer for the NBA team the Sacramento Kings. December 16, 2009 I was involved in a freak accident during a performance on court. I tore my MCL, ACL, and Meniscus. Yea I know ALL BAD. I still remember when I was released home from the hospital I came home and cried. No joke. I cried because the thing I loved doing the most was taken away from me. I'm not trying to get sympathy just trying to bring you into my world. Well it was obvious that I was out for the rest of the King's season. (Thinking back on it, that accident was one of the best things that happen to me.) Fortunately I was giving the opportunity to become a Stage Manager. A Stage Manager is basically a behind the scenes person. Within a few weeks I started to get a hang of things when it came to the job and I started to like it alot. The reason why was because rather than being told how to dance or where to dance I was actually the one suggesting where and how. It was great! For a lack of words...I felt like a puppet master! I felt that my creative side was getting more recognition then me dancing.  If your a dancer you know how hard it is to have someone on your ass telling you to dance now and lets do it one more time again countless times. I felt as if I was Peter Parker. Spiderman for you non Comic Book nerds. I felt as if I had great power and "With great power comes responsibilities." I felt as if I was a voice for the dancers. The voice that could finally speak up for a dancer that was too scared to say anything because they thought they would lose apart due to their defiance. A couple years past and I was in love with being a Stage Manager. I still danced every now and then but I started to lean more towards the behind the scenes stuff. My injured knee did play a big factor also so let me not act like it wasn't. But I started to think of a life after dance. This role started to gain me more creative thought. I started to think outside the box more. I wanted more of a creative role though. By this time I was venturing out. I started event planning and stage managing private parties and dance competitions. You would think that by then I would be satisfied on where I was. I wasn't. Now don't get me wrong I loved doing what I did. Stage Managing and Event Planning was a creative outlet for me. But I'm human and I wanted MORE!

 I decided to take a step toward faith and make it a goal for me to start my own production company. I packed up and moved from Sacramento to the Bay area. Now of course it hasn't been the best adventure. Every day is a day for me to seize an opportunity to meet someone who is in the entertainment field and is willing to give an up and coming producer a chance. Has that day happened you ask. My answer ...no. But I still don't give up. I spend hours of day calling and emailing people about myself hoping to get something. And I have actually. Nothing like a job but I have gotten advice and you know what I cant be mad at that because at least its something. After a few months of not connecting with a major role player in the entertainment field in the bay area I felt as if I was never going to get that chance but today I had an Epiphany. Why do I need to look for someone? Why cant I be that someone???? My dumb ass never thought of just doing my own work. Producing my own entertainment. Just thinking of it now makes me feel like an idiot. But you know what sometimes you gotta feel dumb to do smart things. I hope that made sense to be honest. As soon as I thought of the idea of creating my own entertainment my creative juices started flowing again! Just as when I 1st started being a Stage Manager. I started to think of music videos, parody videos, dancing clips, and other things that shall remain on the DL. Cant give away everything that easy. For now I can say that this summer will be an amazing summer for me and many of my supporters. Prepare to be entertained. Pffttt I should of done this months ago! A person is smart, people are dumb.

Confidence

A lot of people tend to ask me what am I attracted to or what is my type in a woman. My answer was always the same. "I don't know it till I see it." To be honest I seriously didn't know. I didn't know what it was about a woman that would attract me to them. There were a few things that would catch my attention, raise my eye brow, and make me give a double take. For me to explain what these things were let me start from the beginning. In elementary I was attracted to how well the girl would play with me in sports. I.E soccer, kick ball, basketball etc....When I was in Jr. High I was attracted to how a girl did her hair and what type of shoes she would wear. I know I know..."shoes" sound really shallow of me to judge a girl on but I was 13 so give me a break. When in high school I was and I know I'm not the only one here.. the ULTIMATE shallow person. I only wanted to talk to girls who dressed in name brand clothes, fresh kicks, hella make up on, nice bodies, light skin, hung out with only the "cool kids". Man this list sounds pathetic to me haha but its the truth. Anyways out of high school I got a brain and started to see girls for more then looks. I started to notice personalities. Humor, intelligence, and kindness started to play a BIG factor on how I felt about a girl. Come to think of it these traits actually did matter to me in jr high and high school but I didn't want to pay attention to those that much. Kinda like the saying.."it's not your beauty, it's your booty". Yea that pretty much sums it up for me back then. By now your asking yourself well what attracts you now? What is your type of woman that you look for? Well I finally know my answer! It makes so much sense to me now thinking of it and I seriously don't know how I didn't realize it sooner! It CONFIDENCE! If you're a hip hop head you can go head and que the X-Zibit song.

 Other then that we can go on with this blog. Confidence is such a turn on to me. My attraction with confidence starts back when I was in elementary. Let me explain, remember when I said I was attracted to how a girl would play sports with me?? Back then if you were a tom boy almost every girl who wasn't didn't like you. So for you to have the confidence to not care about what your peers thought of you while you played sports was what I was attracted to. Yea I'm getting deep yall. Now as for my shallowness in jr high and high school, well I can explain one. The other reasons can be explained by me being a dumb ass insecure teenager that didn't know any better. But enough of me clowning myself...The way a girl would dress herself caught my eye a lot. Now I know I mentioned earlier I was only into girls that wore name brand but let's be honest here. I wasn't checking every girls tag. To me if you looked nice in an outfit that you were wearing it would show on your face. I don't know about some of you but when I tend to dress up I get more confidence and it shows. Now we move on to the personality traits and these are very big to me. Not to toot my own horn here but I have been with beautiful women but never got into a real relationship because they were lacking humor, brains, and kindness. To me all those have something to do with confidence. Just think a smart person tends to voice their own opinions on subjects. They tend not to have someone walk all over them. The reason why, confidence. I'm not staying they are the smartest person on the earth or that they can answer a hundred math questions in under 20 seconds. I am talking about being smart enough to know their self worth. To know they don't have to go from relationship to relationship just to feel loved or wanted. To know they don't have to look or talk a certain way to get acceptance from others. That all comes from being confident. The kindness comes from the confidence not to care about what others may say or think of you for helping someone out. Just truly thinking of the other individual who is need of help rather then yourself. Now the humor is a very big attraction to me. I tend to be a funny goofy person so when it comes to me being funny or goofy I tend to do it for myself and not others because I seriously don't know what is funny to the next man but that doesn't stop me from cracking a joke here or there. I know some that won't say the joke because they lack the confidence and don't want to be ridiculed for making the joke. Pfft forget that! Girl say the joke! Have the confidence to not care what others may say for what YOU think is funny. At the end of the day being confident is just you being yourself and that is truly what I want in a woman. Confidence and a big booty lol. A person is smart, people are dumb.

Twitter & Facebook Why's

These questions aren't for anyone in particular. Just questions I always seem to ask myself every time I see something fraudulent on Twitter and Facebook.

Why do you think it's cool to call yourself a Bitch or a Slut?

Why do you complain about not having a relationship when you are proud to call yourself a Bitch &/or Slut?

Why do you take a million and one pictures of you in front of the mirror?

Why does it seem that your life only revolves in the bathroom?

Why do you think "Poking" someone is the thing to do?

What the hell does "Its complicated" mean?

You want a job in reporting but yet you take tons of pictures of yourself so that way people can focus more on your looks rather than your words. Why?

Why do you keep saying "Long Hair Don't Care"? Did someone make fun of you for having long hair?

Why are you "#" on Facebook?

Did you just find out now that when you go out for the night that (Y)ou (O)nly (L)ive (O)nce?

Why do I have to hide my friend list from guys on my list?

Why do you Retweet a convo you had with another friend that has nothing to do with anyone else?

Why do you take advice from a fake celeb Twitter profile but yet wont take advice from your own friends?

Why does it seem like you have no life when you tweet over 30 times in an hour?

Why does it seem like your life goal is to get "Likes" and "Retweets"

Is there really such thing as "#Team ________"? If so where do you guys play??

Did you not get the memo that said that celebrity is not going to tweet you back?

Are you taking pictures with you hold cash and bottles of alcohol because you're not use to having it?

Why does everyone think they are a model?

Why do you make those duck lips on every picture you take?

If you are so hard why do you have a Facebook?

Who the hell is starting those "Like if you agree" post?

So it's cool to talk about smoking weed all the time?

You request me and follow me, but who are you again?

Single parent with a few kids and you still go out every night, who is your babysitter?

Just a few questions I wonder as I'm on Twitter and Facebook. A person is smart, people are dumb.

Hey can you give me a ride home but here 1st???

I get a call from my brother asking if I could give him a ride home from the BART station after his dentist appointment. (Keep this in mind. My brother doesn't drive a car. He is a bicyclist. One of those bicyclist that think they own the whole road too.) I say ya and then go about my way to go pick him up. He then calls me back asking if I was hungry. I then tell him no I just ate. I then proceed to pick the guy up. Once in the car I ask him "so did you want me to take you somewhere to eat?" He responds with "yea could you?" So I'm thinking that he wants the typical fast food spot: Mcdonalds, Burger King, etc... He then asks me if I have ever been to some weird name place. I say no and then  says let's go there. I'm like sure. I then ask him "You know I'm not eating right?" He says "Oh, well that's perfect then." He starts to give me directions to this place and I then ask him "So what type of food do they have at this place?" He quickly says "It doesn't matter you're not eating!" I then roll my eyes and ask are we there yet? He says yes and gets out the car. He then walks back up toward my car and says "they're closed" My response.."You Idiot. Have you even been to this place before? Man don't be Yelping places to eat before I pick you up!" he laughs and hops in the car and says take me to this place then. My tongue lashing on him wasn't don't just yet. I proceed to tell him "Aye fucker don't think I'm your personal chauffeur today." He then says "I know. Just take me to this place and then you can take me home." -_- "Oh can I?!" is what I wanted to say but I just said ok just give me directions. He then says make a left here....it was a one way. He says go straight here...its a dead end. He says make a U turn here...I can't its a illegal. I then had a enough and say..."I should of known better then to ask a person who doesn't even fuckin drive for directions to get to a place and expect him not to give me bicyclist directions!" You may be asking yourself "What's bicyclist directions?" Bicyclist directions is basically there is no such thing as a one way, there is no such thing as a dead end, there is no such thing as making an illegal U turn. Make sense? Ok. Back to my brother. We then get to the place and I shit you not the place is like an Olive Garden restaurant. (Sigh) Who the fuck asks for someone to take them to get something to eat and has the audacity to want to go to a sit down restaurant....my brother that's who. I then tell him that he better get that shit to go and that I want whatever he is getting. To be honest world I wasn't hungry, just wanted him to spend his money. Am I wrong for that? Didn't think so. After waiting in the car for 15mins he gets the food and we go. I then say "yea I see its traffic time right now." His response "Yea, it's like that sometimes." A person is smart, people are dumb.

Crazy attracts crazy.

You know those friends you have that are in those relationships with that crazy person. They come crying to you all the time about how crazy their boyfriend/girlfriend is and what do you always tell them??? "Oh _ _ _ _ _ , you know you can do so much better!" (Sigh) Why are you lying to them??? You know damn well they can not, I repeat CAN NOT do better. I don't know if anyone else has notice this but crazy attracts crazy! Oh you don't believe me you say?? You want proof?? Here are my top 5 Crazy Relationships: 5. Tiger Woods and That one blond babysitting Swedish chick. Her name doesn't matter in my books. 4. Tom Cruise and Kate Homes. We all saw his Tom foolery on Oprah and 106 and Park 3. Any relationship from the reality show The Jersey Shore. One word Snooki. 2. Chris Brown and Rihanna. We allllll saw them pictures. And the .1 Craziest relationship of all time.........Whitney Houston and Bobby Brown! Come on people you shouldn't be surprised for that being number 1. Some say that Whitney wasn't crazy till Bobby. B-U-L-L S-H-I-T. God rest her soul but come on now. That lady was straight from a comic book and so was Bobby. But enough with celeb relationships.  I don't think I know one sane person who is in a long term crazy relationship. To be real a sane person would of noticed their crazy traits from the gate. They would of had one of those moments when time stops and all they hear is their voice in their head saying "Ummm this person is more nutty then squirrel shit....I'm coo." And then quickly yell out CHECK PLEASE! Now I'm not bad mouthing crazy people nor am I bad mouthing those crazy relationships. Why would I? You're doing me a favor! You're keeping the crazies away from me and for that I thank you. My future kids thank you! Cuz we all know that craziness will be past down like a family heirloom. Here's the thing though. Crazy people don't know when they are crazy so they sure in the hell don't know they are in a crazy relationship. And that's where a sane person steps in and tells them, "You know what _ _ _ _ _ _, I know you have a crazy relationship but I'm pretty sure you are crazy yourself and that this relationship will be the best you can have." Then they might ask "well how can I do better?" My answer...be sane. That simple. A person is smart,  People are dumb

"Rise and Grind"

I woke up bright and early this morning and like many people I checked my Facebook. While looking on my newsfeed I started to see alot of my "friends" posting similar statuses that said "Rise and Grind! Time to blah blah blah.."(you get the point) I don't know why but the 1st thing that came to mind was who the hell do some of these people think they are???? Colombian drug lords? "Rise and Grind" sounds like a motto a drug king pin would say when he wakes up not a person who works a simple 9-5 in an office pushing paper or a Kinkos/ Cinnabun employee. I know many will say "Jeremy you're just knocking their hustle." STOP IT! Selling drugs to put something on the table to eat for your family is a hustle, pimping out a woman into having sex with a complete stranger for money is a hustle, a woman going from man to man sucking him dry of his money so that way she can survive is a hustle. So you doing data entry, flipping burgers, and answering phones is not a hustle....it's an occupation. There is no "Grind" in doing work like that and you know what, there is absolutely nothing wrong with that. I see now of days my generation and younger generation (80's babies and above) want to try so hard to be seen as a rapper. I know you're asking yourself what does "Grind" have to do with a rapper. Well I will tell you....How many rappers do you hear rapping about grindin this and grindin that? I mean the Clipse had a song named after it! Now in these songs they arent talkin bout grindin at a job getting paid 9.50 an hr while their douch bagger boss cuts their hrs people. They are talkin bout sellin crack to ya mamma just to pay for some new Jordans son!!!! Now thats grindin at its finest haha. But seriously that is grindin. So in mine and the newer generations minds thats cool because not only are you getting some Jordans but also gettin "street cred". Ya I know, a bunch of grade "A" morons. Now lets be honest here if you have a stable 9-5 job you aint selling crack to no ones mamma nor are you grindin, but yet you wanna live that life, you want street cred. So you do the "next best thing"....you simply you the phrase "Rise and Grind" and now you are 100% gangsta. You just got the Nobel Street Prize. Now you are a certified hustler on Facebook. Pffffttt A person is smart, people are dumb.