Life is Outstanding and Very Essential to us all. If you caught what I meant there then you understand where I'm going without it being said. If not, well maybe this isn't for you but at the end of the day I wish it was for everyone.
Random question I want you to ask yourself. Why do you let your insecurities rule & ruin your life? We all know what each of us is insecure about but yet we refuse to admit out loud what it is. Ever heard of the saying "admitting is the first step"? Saying something verbally out loud makes your insecurity seem so small doesn't it? Or am I the only one who feels that way? Meh, suit yourself. I guess we'll continue with me admitting mine out loud. So imagine if you will me yelling out the top of my lungs "BEING LEFT ALONE!" Wow, that felt amazing to say! Why you ask? Because of the simple fact that as soon as I said it something clicked......I'm not as alone as I think I am or will be.
Seems too easy to be true right? Let me explain. On my 30 years on this lovely earth I have made plenty of friends. Some can say I am a very sociable person, a social butterfly maybe? Umm lets just stick with sociable person. Has more of a manly edge to it. Anyway as stated I've made a lot of friends and for me to say I'm scared to be alone is very foolish for me to say. Not to brag or boast myself but the way my personality and genes are set up, ummmmmmm I'll never be left alone. The only reason and the true reason I'll be left alone is if I allow myself to be left alone. If that is the case then why the hell am I scared of being alone when in actuality what I'm saying is that I'm scared of myself! It feels weird to say and admit that. It's kinda like having another person in my body bullying me basically. I've never been one to be bullied so I'm not going to let my insecurity of being left alone bully me any longer. Let's be honest here, what's the worse that can happen if I stand up to my insecurity? Abso-fucking-luthy nothing! With that being said its time to open up more and welcome more people in and to not be cautious and afraid to let others in due to the fact that in the back of my mind the insecurity of me wondering if they'll leave and I'll be stuck alone. Pfffffttt fuck that noise homieeeee. The only outcome I see from doing that is enjoying the ups and downs of life. I'd rather face a ton of downs than to not face anything in life. Sure pain may come along but pain makes us stronger right?
I bring this up so that someone who might be in the same situation as me thinks twice before letting your insecurities ruin a good thing such as love from coming into your life. And one more thing before I go and I want everyone to know, Musiq Soulchild raps now -___-. People are dumb, a person is smart.
